Mist of Miss

Tonight I am all alone
on this couch with my laptop
while messaging her
talking about our time together

there is a mist surrounding me
a mist of miss
it causes my tears of sadness
to run down my cheeks and chin

I am missing her a lot
day by day this mist is getting thicker
i do not know where to run anymore
this mist is killing me

do not know when will we meet again
maybe in 5 months
but can i survive for that long
only me and myself will know

one thing is for sure
i will hold on to her no matter what
even I have to wait for another thousand years
cause I love her

Blur Confusion

What happen between us tonight?
I don't even realize what did really happen
At first it was all flowers and rainbows
In the end only blur and confusion surround us

we were talking and joking
suddenly all turn to blue and gray
I don't know what to do now
this blur is confusing me

i don't want to make her cry again
don't want to make her punch wall again
enough i said
i don't want to hurt her anymore

maybe i was destined to live alone
so that i dun have to hurt anyone
every night my tears are dropping
without any reasons and onions

i am slowly closing my eyes
hoping that this mist of confusion will disappear
in this darkness of night
i will disappear

ari emo sedunia....(smlm)

huhuhuhuuhuhuu.... i guess dat headline is not for everyone... aku sowg je... waaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... xtw ar pehal la smlm jiwa aku kacau truk... sucks!!! myb sbb smlm tu aku de test akaun yg mcm haram aku xdpt jwb... rse bodow gle... nk wt test tu sram sjuk tgn aku nk mnjwbnye,,, da lme akuk x seram sjuk ble jwb test ni... last aku jt mcm tu tme aku jwb spm.. aku seram sejuk ble aku x pham pe yg aku wt n x blh jwb satu2 exam tu...

esknye aku terus dmam... then got a sms, morning my lovey... tme tu aku da rse ok... tp tah pe la yg jd... tgh hari tu msing2 jd xde mood.. every seconds i spent yesterday evening feel like i wanna die... xtw pe yg jd ngn aku smlm... sng sngt nk tacing... pdhal da lme dah aku x jd mcm tu... feel so guilty, stupid n shit!!! huhu.... mlm pun mcm tu gak... x bls msj pn aku nk kecoh???? fuck me... smlm mmg aku gle... pg ni bwu aku sdr sume tu... im gonna call her later.. lpas sidai bju... nsib bek laaa aku x wt gle ngn kwn2 aku... ngn final exam mndatang pe sume ni... mcm ni la jdnye.. adoi... tp yg jd mngsa si dye... im so sorry... believe me i wouldnt do anything to hurt u... its all bcoz of me...

skrg ni aku rse x puas ati ngn diri sendiri... rse nk hntuk2 pala kt dinding pn ade. td lpas bsuh bju aku lmpat sowg2 dlm bilik mcm owg gla.... rumate aku sume xde dlm bilik.. hope sngt time lompat2 tu aku slip jtuh n koma... hahha... x yah la nk face pressure ni sume... n i dun hve to hurt her again.... waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... T_T

FFF...

Final final final...tu ar mksud fff tu... x lme da ni... aku akaun pn kucar kacir lg... math pn lbeh kurang... ngn prktikal pn senyap je... xde notice pe2 pn... sakit kepala mcm ni... adoiii... jiwa kacau... tekanan... huhu... test result pn trok... haiya,... xtw npe sem ni... sume serabut.. celaru... cobaan....

aku bwu2 ni de msuk open tournament chess... bapak tercabar... n humble gle ngn bdk2 yg msuk tournament tu.... korg bayangkan bdk2 yg msuk ramai skul rendah... lwn ngn bdk2 ipt n owg tua... mnang lak tu... haha.. klu owg yg x tw mnde2 ni mmg agak klaka la... tp aku mmg respek gle dowg... tabik spring beb... naib johan dpt bdk pmpuan umo 8 taun x slap aku... comel gle... bangga mak bapak budak tu...

nxt sem gue da prktikal... gudbye uitm dungun... mmbr2... sume la yg knal aku kt uitm ni... makcik cleaner, umi, mama, sume mmg bez... n yg plg bez aku xmaw sebut spe... klu dye bce dye tw la kot... yg knpem bkn ko acab... haha...

FFF...

AArrggHHH.. (marah2)

ni aku nk cte psl smlm... kt kitchen.. x tw la npe sem ni aku asyik wt slack je dlm kitchen... mcm2 la xkne. wt ni x kne wt tu x kne. pastu kne maki hamun ngn si katek kerek tu lg... pergh... aku smlm hilang sbr jap... bkn pe. aku in charge jge vege... then 1st time wt overcooked coz aku lpe nk check.. xpe la yg tu aku blh time coz mmg slah aku. then 2nd time wt aku xtw spe yg msukkan sbb aku nga wt kje len tme tu.. ingat nnt nk wt.. then cod(chef of the day) tnye aku da check vege ke.. tgk2 dah ade owg msukkan dlm steamer tu.. check2 sket lg nk overcooked. dah tu kne mrh lak ngn cod... mmg ar F^&)... aku xtw pe pn.. rpenye de la malaun ni yg letak.. cod pn berleter aku jgn harap owg tlg kte... lorh... aku x suh tlg pn.. aku mmg nk wt mnde tu.. yg sibuk pehal.. da wt tu gtaw la len kali... yg ko senyap pehal... mcm SIAL... cod pn kerek semcm... nk kte slah aku n jgn slahkan owg len.. pk ar dlu weh... klu ko kne mcm tu bwu ko tw... smlm nsib x de aku ngamuk tol2... kowg nk tgk aku ngamuk wt laaa... ingat aku huha xde nk mrh2 blh nk pijak pale... g ar MAM...

KEserAbuTAn...

perghhh... serabut gler sem nie... aku pn lg serabut... sume owg serabut sem ni.. ngn fnal nk dekat. stdy week pn de... pasni result jtuh jgn slahkan student. slahkan uitm sendiri.. pndai2 x bg stdy week pehal.. gggrrrhhh...

pg td aku bwu lpas presentation ctu(Pnddikan Islam). actually aku sdikit bngga ngn diri aku sbb pg td aku present agak bez laa.. wlaupun ckp laju sket tp still aku rase mcm aku present ngn elok. klu sblm ni aku present bce je tp pg td aku present spontan.. smooth jer.. ntah mne aku dpt skill present mcm tu pn aku x taw. berdebar pn x sngt. hahahaa... bangge2...

tp skrg nga tensen blk nk siapkan menu utk malaysian cuisine n asaimen2 lain... da la weekend ni kne msak untk dnner lg... mmg x rest lngsung la mnggu ni.. arggghhhh... test ctu lg, presentation ro lg.. mmg nk bnuh bdk2 sem 3 ni... tp xpe la.. as long she is wif me i dun mind... hihi.... rse mcm nk ehem2 trus je pas abis diploma.. tp x bole... aku da jnji ngn mak aku kne smbung degree sblm kje ke ehem2 ke.. haha... so sabo je la... kne dpt redha mak tu yg pnting... neway aku mlm ni nk discuss menu ngn member2... k ahh.. nk mndi... chow shin chan...!! ^_^